Monday, October 1, 2007

IWhat had happened in Sept?

yeay!!! its been ages i havent touch this page..hmmm what had happened to me????


on September

sent my friend a.k.a officemate back to his country..we sent him at KLIA..it was so sad..sodd...sssoooodd....here is our last pic, which he sent to us..we miss u Mr Ventura!!!!




on 25th Sept, i drove alone to Johor. It was a very long journey and my back was hurt..ouch!! i went back to johor because i had an exam on the next day..hmmm..that was the scariest experience ever happen to me..it even worse than SPM...I was so terrified...poor thing...hehehe i couldnt sleep during the night before..i kept thinking about my friend's word..he said, my examiner dont like my result and he wanted to question me bout that...hmm i couldnt eat..sleep...and i was like a zombie during that night..i kept reading my thesis again and again..read all those papers..just to prepare myself in front of examiners...on that exam day, i dress up quickly and set my presentation slide earlier..my head kept rolling over and over, finding all the possibility answers..i called my parents, asked them to pray for me..it was my big day..and i have to get through all this...i just wish that day ended with a snap of finger..hehehe...


well, during the viva-voce session, my examiner didnt touch anything regrading to my research..he just discussed about my thesis only..he asked why i use this sentence, why did i use that word..he asked me to reword..rephrase..that's all..hehehe that was so relief!!!!! he passed me with 3 months correction and i felt like flying...i thanked him for reading and evaluating my thesis thoroughly....i feel want to punch my friend right onto his face!!!!! he's the one that should responsible for my sleepless night..because of him, i cant sleep well..eat well..having scariest and most frighthening nightmare in my life!!!!!


This is just only a master degree..what will happen for my PhD? hmmm it must be 1000000 times harder than this...hmmm i hope i can get through all this...

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Burglar



starting today, we are encauraging to upgrade the security level in our office and lab since yesterday, one of our staff, Mr Giorgio Ventura's drawer has been forced open by intruder..luckily, none of his belongings were missing...(Lucky that his apple notebook still with him!)


so, from that incident, we cant enter our lab today..my superior has reset the access to the air shower door and no one can enter the lab anymore...and he is conducting a meeting regarding to the lab accessment today...


im collecting some data in the lad since yesterday and without lab i dont know what else i can do today hehehe..i guess, i need some rest hehehe

You Got Me!!!!

something to share...last 2 days, i was punked by my superior...it was 10 oclock in the morning, suddenly i got a call from my superior telling me that the CEO wants to meet me in Meeting Room 1...i was surprised..everything came and mixed like 'rojak' in my head..along the way to that meeting room, i kept thinking what went wrong with my work, why my CEO wanted to see me...i was just about two months here and if anything goes wrong, im a dead meat...i think, my heart was thumping and i was barely breathing...


when i reached the meeting room, i prayed a lot...and my both hands were shivered..and i pulled the door knob and slowly enter the meeting room with a notebook (diary) in my hand...what was happened???!!!!


Actually, my superior called me to come to that meeting room to join them eating some refereshment ha!ha!ha!..they kept laughing at me because i looked like a dead girl with a notebook in my hand!!! i was punked by them!!!! ha ha ha...my superioir said, since im a new staff, it is compulsory for them to bully the new staff he he he...


and since then, whenever we had meeting, my superior kept saying to me, "shikin, ceo nak datang" hehehehe....so..this is the funniest thing ever happened to me as a new staff here...hehehe

Sunday, July 29, 2007

tarraaaa....!!!!

As i pormised before..here is my first baby...my new lovely baby..and i love this baby sooooo much!!!!!! My baby is just look alike the one in this pic and i've tinted my baby's window with grey...




At first i dont have any plan to buy this baby, however, this baby has saved my life..i cant stand living with my aunt..she's a horrible person that will be the last person you want to live with in this world...i know she made up a story behind my back about my behaviour and why im buying a new car in rush...but, i just ignored it..and my parents know why i did this because they have watched my aunt's behaviour towards me in front of their own eyes..


forget bout my aunt..even though i just work for about 3 weeks, im glad i manage to buy this car..and i can live happily ever after with my parents in sepang and i dont have to face that dragon anymore!!!! hahahaha....


what should i call my baby???hmmm what do u think??can u suggest to me??i want to name my baby....if you do have any idea, just comment it k...



Thursday, July 19, 2007

How to Be Happy??





Everyone wants to be happy..that is why some ppl will go for diets to make themselves happy and comfortable with them, some buying new clothes just to feel happy..happiness is about being happy without worries and problems interference..Here are some tips i would like to share with all of my friends on 'How To Be Happy'


1) Change your thought process : leave our fear behind us, look ahead towards success. Rather than thinking of problems and getting desperate, imagine or sketch out the best outcome and then work out what you need to do to make that happen...stop being desperado and start working to success!!!

2) See the world as what it is : You have friends and family around you that love you, so be thankful!!! No one has everything, and everyone has some sorrow in their endless life episode..we cant change what had happened yesterday, so enjoy today and look forward for future!!!

3) Lighten Up : Dont take yourself too seriously, just calm and relax. Dont worry too much because it can cause a mental problem to you and will affect your entire life. If you have some problems that you cant truly do anything about them, just let them go..Laughter is the powerful medicine, the calmer and more peaceful u can take things, the happier your life will be.

4) Be yourself : We cant please everyone..and dont compare ourselves with everyone else. Most of the time, if we compare ourselves with someone else, we intend to see ourselves smaller and 'short end'. No one knows what other people are going through. If we intend to see ourselves smaller than others, it means that we dont have a self-respect to ourselves. Therefore, do what we love and beneficial to us and pay lots of self-respect to ourselves.

5) Make a scheduled time for relaxation : We are given 24 hours a day. So we have to manage and spare some 1 or two hours to relax ourselves by watching news, reading and doing other things that we like and love much!!!

6) Choose your right companion : Get involved with activities that reflect who you are, and get to know people who like the things you do. Don't rule out the Internet as a place to find a significant other, just get to know them over the phone or through a few months of emails before agreeing to a meeting in person. --> this is important and advisable to me and others hehehehehe....

And lots of other tips...but im too tired of typing and got other things to do..so till then and hopefully these few tips can help us to make us happier person!!!

Sunday, July 15, 2007

My New Present


I got something for me today...cant wait to get it..what is it?? hehehe ssshhhh.....i promise, once i get it, i'll put it in this blog...


monday (16-07-2007) --> new episode in my life..another new day as a working woman..woman?? am i a woman?? hahahaha dont have answer for that question..a new day means a new thing to learn..


cant wait until working hours end today hehehe...ooppsss...still got work to do..till then...

Thursday, July 12, 2007

The Terrorist - John Updike




Hmm..when u look at the title, u'll think this book describes about terrorists mind..their strategy and what not..that was my 1st impression...here is some review i found in the internet about this book...


Terrorist by John Updike is about Ahmad Ashmawy Mulloy, an 18-year-old boy in Northern New Jersey who is devoted to Islam. Ahmad was raised by an Irish-American mother after his Egyptian father disappeared when he was three. Ahmad converts to Islam at age 11 and is instructed in the Qur'an by a local imam.

Ahmad is a sympathetic character. Updike lets readers into his head, forcing us to view American materialism and morality from his viewpoint. Updike also draws us into other characters' lives--Ahmad's mother, a high school guidance counselor, an African-American teenage girl, a worker in the Department of Homeland Security. It was striking to me how lost many of the characters were. In many ways, Ahmad was one of the most thoughtful and moral characters in the story. That is a disturbing realization when you consider that he is being groomed to be a terrorist.

Indeed, just as the protagonist is a thoughtful young terrorist, the novel Terrorist is a thought-provoking book. It is clear that Updike has thought a lot about American society, the inner city and modern morality. His descriptions and complex characters compel readers to do the same.

Terrorist is not easy reading. I did not get caught up in the plot, and that was disappointing. It was easy for me to put the novel down after 25 pages, both because I needed time to process and because it did not always keep my attention. Updike is a great writer, and Terrorist shows that; however, everyone may not like the book.


his opinion is similar with mine..after reading it halfway, i hate this book..i couldnt find any interesting point in every page of this book..the way he describes about terrorist ambitious and determination are very weak and i hardly feel their action..and the ending is disappointed...maybe Updike lacked of idea during that time...or maybe he was being pushed by the publisher or his environment hehehehe

Break No Bones - Kathy Reichs



Another nice book to read..it's about crime investigation...i havent finish read it, so i cant give any comment now, however, after halfway reading it, i enjoy and find it's an interesting material to read..i'll give a comment later k..hehehe

SESAT

Good morning to myself hehehehe..n to those who are reading this blog..hope all of us have a nice day leading ahead us..So, i got something to share today...hehehe..it's some silly story from me...

hmm..as usual, i wake up at 6.30 a.m in the morning..and as usual i have to walk to LRT station in bndr tasik selatan from my aunt's house in kg malaysia raya, and as usual, this arrogant and stubborn girl declines her aunt's carpool service..she said, she wanted to exercise by walking to that station..hehehe...from bndr tasik sltn, i'll take an Star LRT to Bukit Jalil.. when i arrive at LRT station in bukit jalil, i have to wait for a bus to get me into TPM (Technology Park Malaysia)..

so..hmm...here the story began..in the bus, i saw one woman wearing mimos badge strip, purple in colour, so it means that her destination is as same as mine, so in the bus, i just waited her to push the bell..we started pass the UCIT building, we should start ring the bell after passing this building, but she didnt push the bell..n this stubborn homo sapien just waited there..hahahaha and the bus went straight until we reach in a green building, which i do not know what is that building for...n finally, there was one guy ringed the bell..unfortunately, the bus already passed mimos building for about hundreds meter...and i have to walk to my building...i cursed myself not to ring the bell earlier..while walking, the same bus came from behind me...actually, the bus will make a u-turn at the last building in TPM..and the bus stopped exactly in front of mimos building (means that stop exactly in front of me) !!!! and i was so emberassed by this incident because the same bus just passed me and that woman popped out from the bus!!!! she just looked at me and maybe wondered why i stopped at the wrong building just to reach the same building with her....

hmm the moral of the story is...just follow ur senior while u r in the bus with her/him hehehehe...

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Jeng Jeng


I'll be watching ya!!!!!


Tuesday, July 10, 2007

BUSY?



What happen if God creates human with eight hands? Dont give 'busy' reason when it comes to family, because my parents never say 'busy' to me whenever i ask their help..busy is not the reason u cant have enough time in 1 day, if let say God gives us 25 hours in a day, we will come out with the same reason --> 'busy'...so it depends to us to manage our time wisely..i hope i can manage my time porperly hehehe

1st day working

hmm i just started my 1st day yesterday..at 1st, they ask me to report duty on 2nd of July, but since they didnt finish issuing offer letter to me, then they asked me to start on 9th of july..so i had 1 week vacation at my parents house n becoming my sister's driver to her school..


1st time stepped into MIMOS office, i was nervous, scared..hmm feeling that i might cant do my work..feel that it's going to be a hard task for me..because i never have any working experience since my bachelor degree..afraid to get along with the expertise..every negative feeling was popped into my mind...but then, when i started introduce myself in front of my colleuges and bosses, ive gained some confidence and wanted to be part of them...it's a good sign..


my 1st day was filled with non-engineering work..hehehe..where to get my temporary pass..settling all the documents...getting my email domain..i-vest machine registration and everything...the HR guy said that, they are going to organize an orientation day for new employees, maybe another 2 or 3 weeks..


and for my 1st day, i always get lost from one building to another building, from 1 dept to another dept..and i also get lost to surau..n i cant remember how to get back to my own dept!!!! hahahaha


the most important thing is,im now in kl..that's a relief...n i cant wait to spend more time with my friends and my hearttrob..hmm...


anyone has watched 'Transformer'? well, please give me some review k..i cant wait to watch it too....im going to hehehe...

Thursday, June 28, 2007

Success


What is this??Any guess??


This is my final draft..cant u see my name there???hehehehehe finally ive submitted the thesis..and now im waiting for my viva date...hmm i feel release...feel free..feel like i just walked out from darkness towards brigther day..hehehehe hmm..it was a sacrifice..i wont forget the all the tiring, suffering, but yet sweet processes during my study...Thank to my supervisor..my friends and my parents...for their tremendous support..without them, i think i will not capable to achieve what i've achieved today....and the deepest gratitude to HIM..that allows and gives me a chance to live and achieve my success today..
this coming monday i'll start working hehehehe just got 2 days holiday to compensate my two years of study hahahahahaha but it's worth hehehehe

Another Delicious....


here is another delicious tom yam in JB...





this is anotehr delicious tom yam in Danga Bay, JB..the cook was Siamese, hmmm their 'kuah' was reeaaaallllyyy superb!!!!!! the price was RM5 per bowl..but u can ask them for xtra kuah..and i also enjoyed their kerabu mangga...hmm perrrggghhh wa cakap lu....terangkat!!!!!!!



Hehehe i think my blog after this will full with food..especially tom yam...heheheh my fav food hehehehehe....im looking for 'pecal'..i miss my aunt's pecal in sabak bernam...dont play2 haa.. her pecal is already in UK (because one of her daughter's friend ask my aunt to post the raw pecal to her hehehe) hehehehehe....hmm imagine haa..eat pecal with kang kung...then tempe...then tauhu...then taugeh...then beanstalk...then..peerrrggghhhh...add with some rice walauwei.......



if i can get her pecal pic i'll post in my blog..hahahaha

BBQ Time!!!

last tuesday, i was invited by my friend to join their BBQ party..it was nice..and nicer when my internal panel was there...hahahaha...we had chicken wing, ikan what i dah luper laa...shrimp...sausage..salmon fingers...lamb...a very delicious fried rice..fried mee hoon...laici cocktail (i made that..hehehe...)


i dont know how to roast those meats, so i just watch them roasted it and i became the food taster hahahahaha just 'kacau2' them..the BBQ went until 11pm..and everyone was really full...including me...i had three plate of nasi goreng mix with mee hoon, n chicken wing, lamb..fish..suasage..well i was the taster aite??hehehe so that was what a food taster will do..hahahaha





Our rentung chicken wing





ikan what i dah luper...

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Saja nak gelak2

Kuih ape yang bungkusnya di dalam, isinya di luar?
Kuih salah bikin.

Binatang ape power Karate?
Kuda belang.cube kira brape black belt dia ade.

Siape yang menemukan dompet kulit?
Yang menemukan dompet kulit tersebut tolong pulangkan kepada saye.

Pintu ape yang walaupun dengan 10 org pun tak leh nak tolak?
Pintu yang ade tulis 'TARIK'

Saya ade 3 kepala,4 tangan dan 5 kaki...siapakah saya?
Pembohong...

Apa dia 'Jauh di mata, dekat di hati...'?
Usus

Binatang ape yang seluruh anggota tubuhnya kat kepala?
Kutu rambut

Nenek sape jalannya meloncat-loncat?
Neneknye si katak

Knape lelaki jarang kene penyakit anjing gila?
Sbb lelaki ni kan 'buaya'

Ape beza sekretari baik ngan sekretari kurang baik?
Sekretari baik..................'Selamat pagi tuan'
Sekretari kurang baik...........'Dah pagi ni tuan'

Ape persamaan Michael Jordan ngan Michael Jackson?
Dua-dua tak kenal korang...hehe

Tukang ape yang kalau dipanggil, die menjenguk ke atas?
Tukang gali kubur

Nak mencari sikit punye susah, bile dah dapat buang, ape bendanya?
Tahi hidung

Ape persamaan kain jemuran ngan telefon?
Dua-dua kalau dah 'kringgg' bole diangkat...

Knape pokok kelapa kat depan rumah harus ditebang?
Mestilah kene tebang, sape nak cabut pokok kelapa ...gile ape...

Gajah terbang dengan ape?
Dengan susah payah......






keh..keh..keh...

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Digital Fortress




This is an interesting book to read. The story is about the appearance of an unbreakable mysterious code in National Security Agency at United State. NSA owns a powerful code-breaker machine, namely TRNSLTR. TRNSLTR is used to decipher Email in cases preapproved by the Justice Department. TRANSLTR was to include programming that called for passwords held in escrow by the Federal Reserve and the Justice Department in order to decipher a file. This would prevent the NSA from listening indiscriminately to the personal communications of law-abiding citizens around the globe. However, when the time came to enter that programming, the TRNSLTR’s staff was told that TRNSLTR has to be a free-standing decryption device whose day-to-day operation would be regulated solely by NSA.

This news has outraged one of the employee, Ensei Tankado. He saw TRANSLTR as a gross violation of human rights. The TRANSLTR can now open everyone’s mail and resealing it without their knowing. He quit on the spot from NSA and tried to publish the news to the Electronic Frontier Foundation and public. But NSA had stopped him. And now, he came back with an unbreakable code that makes the TRANSLTR fails to decipher it. Only he can decipher it, using his secret pass-key.

The sudden death of Ensei Tankado has aroused the conspiracy in NSA. The head of Crypto dept, Strathmore, called his head cryptographer Susan Fletcher, a brilliant, beautiful mathematician, to assist him to achieve his selfishly purposes without her knowing. He needs to find Tankados’s pass-key to decipher the code and save TRANSLTR’s pride. His ambitious has betrayed Susan, who battles to save the agency she believes in. When Susan realizes, she finds herself fighting not only for her country but for her life, and in the end, for the life of the man she loves…

UART

i would like to share some knowledge here...


if let say, u want to get millions stream of data or bits from your external hardware and you want to test it on your PC, it is better if you capture these data or bits using hyper terminal..


in my case, i need 1 Gigabit of data from my external embedded hardware (i use Stratix FPGA development board), thus, i have to transfer the data from the external hardware to my PC through a serial communication interface (using RSA 232 protocol) --> actually u can transfer the data faster using universal serial bus (USB). At first, we write a c code in Visual C++ to capture the data continuously (looping 32 millions time to achieve 1 Gigabit) from external hardware and save it in a file. This method is actually consuming lots of memory, and if you are not writing your c code carefully, you'll face a problem of insufficient virtual memory and after 4 millions of cycle your pc hang. This happened to me lots of time. We troubleshoot the code, modify the code even try to break the output file into several fragments and put some delay between millionth iteration, yes, the insufficient virtual memory problem solved, but, the consequence is, the data rate transfer becomes slower and slower…we need to wait 1 day to get 153 Megabit (10% of 1 Gigabit)…


So, then we think another way of capturing big length of data using hyper terminal..we move the c code, and replace it with hyper terminal…the hyper terminal can save the captured bits from external hardware directly into the specified file and it is faster..moreover, we don’t face the insufficient virtual memory problem and my pc didn’t hang anymore…

Monday, June 18, 2007

Are We Safe?

when you open the newspapers now, you'll see the headlines are highlighting the rising of crime rate. Recently in Johor Bharu, about 200 citizens were gathering in front of Menteri Besar's house to protest over this issue...What is happening now in our country? Even if you are accompanied by a male friend, it doesn’t mean that you are save…it was proven by last incident in Johor Bharu….


The couple was on their way back to their home that night, and suddenly an anonymous car, drove rammed from behind them, they were asked to pull over, but the boyfriend ignored the warning and they were chased for almost 20km, lastly their car slammed on something and they stopped..the gang took all their belongings and the girlfriend was taken into secluded area and she was brutally raped by the gang…hmm…so tragic…


our country is not safe anymore…

Saturday, June 16, 2007

W O R R Y

This is my third entry for today..its not because i dont have other works to do..im not feeling 'ok'..im not feeling o 'f***ing' k!!!

the thing is, why cant i calm myself when my bf said he wanted to hang out with his friend?? Its not that im not allowing him to join his friend..it just that, i dont like it if they are hanging out in club..i know he wont do idiot things..i know he's not drinking or flirting with other girls, but i just dont like it..is it because im not open in this matter??there is some uneasy feelings in my heart..is it because i dont trust him? no..i trust him..i trust him..Jealousy...yes, im jealous with him...i envy him..he can spend time with his friends..he can have a good time..

when this thing happens, my mind always roll back to my ex..my ex didn’t like to tell me where did he go, with whom and he don’t want me to message him, call him while he’s hanging out with his friend… that’s y i was always pissed off with him..he’s too secretive..he always said to me, whatever happens between him and his friend are out of my concern..

but my current bf is too different from my ex..n i trust him more..but, whenever he said he wanted to hang out with his friend, my mind always think about what my ex had done to me those years…i should not too worry about him..unfortunately, i cant resist myself to have this ‘uneasy’ feelings inside me…


im worried about him

Please Understand Me


If I don't want what you want, please try not to tell me my want is wrong. Or if I believe other than you, at least pause before you correct my view.

I do not, for the moment at least, ask you to understand me. That will come only when you are willing to give up changing me into a carbon copy of you.

I may be your spouse, your parent, your offspring, your friend, your customer, or your colleague.

To put up with me is the first step to understanding me. Not that you embrace my ways as right for you, but that you are no longer irritated or disappointed with me for my seeming waywardness. Then, in understanding me, you might come to prize my differences, and, instead of trying to change me, preserve and even nurture those differences.

GETTING THERE


im getting there..almost close to my final check point..just another 1-2 week(s) to go..cant wait to finish everything and pack my things back to kl...


hmm...about my internal examiner...i got an invitation from a friend to join them for BBQ party..n my internal examiner will be there..should i turn it down or should i go there???i think maybe i should go to that party, if we want to go to a battle, we should know our enemy first, right???so maybe i'll take this opportunity to meet my examiner, face to face, get along with him first, at least intro myself to him (even though he already knows he's going to be my examiner hehehe)...maybe he'll ask about my work in advance and i can prepare myself earlier to his un-answered question hehehe...im scared of him..he's my head of department and he's one of the most unwanted panel in my faculty...he likes to shoot people during students' project presentation..aiiyyaaarrrkkk!!!!!


wish me luck guys...lots of luck!!!

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Rebonding Time!!!!







im going to chill out for few hours hehehehe...going to saloon and rebond my hair hehehehe..yeehaaa.....hmmm..better than shopping hehehehe....

Thnx Mr SkinOff...



here i would like to give my deepest gratitude and thanks to mr skinoff for editing my chptr 2 yesterday..hehehe then, i send my whole thesis to him and hopefully he can amend it and can gives some opinion regarding to my thesis...



so, mr skinoff, sorry to troublesome you with my thesis..but hopefully after reading my thesis, you can get overall picture of my researh work...then, you can expand your knowledge kan mr skinoff??? hehehehe



last but not least..THANK YOU!!!! Hope u are going to enjoy reading my thesis!!!!

Thesis oo Thesis



hmm i think last time i said sumthing bout my supervisor, yes,he's fussy and a demanding person, that is true..but actually, he wants to help me...n i think until today i have no regret doing my master under his supervision...



im so glad i have a supervisor like him, even though he's busy with other things, but he still spares his time looking on my thesis and editing it..even though i have to do the correction after correction (betul ke what im trying to say ni?)..



this is the fourth time i have to correct and reconstruct my thesis..but, its ok...im willing to do it this time..im so blessed to have him..really so blessed...hmm so, the moral of the story here is, dont take things for easy, dont choose the easiest way just to get rid of something, because, if you always wanted the easiest way, you wont learn and you wont know that you can do more and better actually...

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Im sorry dear..I cant..



This is the last msg i received in YM from my ex..im sorry, i have to censored his Yahoo ID..the thing is dear, i dont know whether there is still a space for u in my heart..i dont know whether i can love u like before..because, there's no more love for u from me..so sorry..im so sorry we have to end up like this..i never ask for it to happen between us..it's all up to you if u want to put all the blame on me, i accept it, but dont forget one thing dear, u r the one that influenced all my decision on that time..u r the one that pushed me away from u, it was not me..then, it is not easy to win me back..u hurt me once, and i forgave u, but now u hurt me twice, n if i forgive and come back to u, i think im making s**t in my life..once is enough..not twice..no more dear..im sorry..

fall in love



Title: Bila hati dah sayang
Singer: Salamiah Hassan
--------------------------

bila hati dah sayang
tak siapa yg boleh larang
bila sudah dipunya
selalu teringatkannya

bila sudah bercinta
siang malam ingatkannya
tidur baring tak lena
wajah selalu dipuja

bila rindu melanda di jiwa
tidak ada yang lain darinya
walaupun tak sesegak dipandang
itu tak kan menjadi soalan
asalkan dihati tenteram

bila sudah bercinta
siang malam ingatkannya
tidur baring tak lena
wajah selalu dipuja

bila hati dah sayang
tak siapa yang boleh larang
bila sudah dipunya
selalu teringatkannya

~ Salamiah Hassan ~

This is a nostalgic song singed by Salamiah Hassan in 80's. The song is about a young lady, whose heart was stolen by her one and only heartthrob, expressing her love, devotion, and never-ending feelings towards her lover. Fall in love…it’s a miracle experience happens between two heart..why do we fall in love??

The question is why do i fall in love??it’s so hard to explain it, but according to research, people fall in love, or seeking a love is because they want to expand themselves and to increase their abilities and effectiveness…these can be achieved through relationship…

Hmm well, it doesn’t mean that if we are single, we are not effective…we are effective in fact, if we are not effective how do we gain all the happiness and prosperity in our life now, it just that, maybe we can be more effective if we have other people to look after us and guide us..it is just my personal view…hehehe

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

"sedap giler...."




last day, i went to Johnny's Restaurant with my friend..just wanted to try their tom yam bee hoon..so i ordered their promo meal, it was a tom yam bee hoon, warm water (u can also choose Thai's tea), Vanilla Ice Craem (variety of flavours) and a bowl of mushroom tom yam soup...and my friend had a yam abc (really delicious) and a some kind of keow teow soup...


Wow..their tom yam was 'KICK'..seriously, im in love with the taste..it was more delicious than tom yam koong in secret recipe..and sold at reasonable price..only RM5.90 per bowl..compared to secret recipe, their price is RM13.90!!!! heheheehe i enjoyed their tom yam so much...if u try this tom yam bee hoon in Johnny's restaurant, i bet u wont regret...the sourness, sweetness and spiciness and all other ingredients were nicely blended...hmm until today i still keep thinking about the taste..ssllluuurrrrppppp!!!!!


After this, i want to ask my friend to go to TGI Friday hehehe....

so sweeeeetttt....



Ive received this pic from my friend via my email...hmm that was the sweetest pic ive ever seen...it's a picture of Tun Dr. Mahathir and Dr. Siti Hasmah, our ex-PM..they are so sweet in this pic..look how Dr. Siti Hasmah tease her husband in this picture..hehehe it's really show that they have a wonderful life as husband and wife ..

my point here is, the 'sweetness' in one relationship is not just practicing it during our young days only..we need to show and need to practice it until we get old (not just practice it under the bed sheet only eh hahaha)..it is not a crime to show the love, the affection between us and our spouse, and being romantic in public, but dont over do it laa..or else u might invite an uncomfortable eye witnesses around u hehehe..

i always wanted my husband treat me romantically in public, it doesnt mean that i want to show off, it just that, i want to be treated as special no matter where we are..

i do envy this old couple..hehehe they still in the mood of love until today ...so romantic..im so inspired...hehehe...

Monday, June 11, 2007

Think of It


"If you want to be a teacher..you need to learn twice.."

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

Why Cant I???





These are my fav movies!!!! Hell no im going to miss them!!!




I must watch these movies..i must!!!!! F**k my thesis for the moment...i want to enjoy these movies...Plz...this weekend i have to watch them..or else, i'll buy the pirate one...hahahahaha

Monday, June 4, 2007

L A S T L Y . . . .

Yeeeaaahhhhhaaaaa.........lastly i finish testing all the crypto hardware with the integration of Crypto API...it's quite blunder to an IT blind like me...if u ask me to design digital hardware, i can do it...no problem as long as i get all the design specification and the algorithm...actually im not that stupid when it comes to programming..I can manage the C programming, but this thing is playing with the Operating System (OS) and everything needs to follow that operating system environment...


But finally, i have finished it…after almost 4 months struggling to understand the flow of MS CryptoAPI and MSCryptoSPI behavioural….hmmm thanks to God..thanks to him…


After completed everything, then i realized, the output is just few lines….hahahaha people just want to see the output…they don’t bother about the underlying process…everything is about RESULT…they don’t want to know how suffer we are during that development process..especially during program debugging process…well..that’s reality right….what to do..just live with it!!!


Here i attach some screen shots of my program output..dont ask about the hardware and software component development, it need 2 years to explain it to you..hahahaha…im glad..finally ive finished!!!!!!


Figure 1: the RSA Encryption/Decryption Operation On Hardware
with the integration of API on Host PC


Figure 2: The Encryption/Decryption Process With the Integration

of MS Crypto API

Figure 3: The RSA-based Digital Signature Operation With the Integration
of MS Crypto API

These are just 3 pieces from my overall research work..i got lots of other pieces but i guess it's enough for showing these 3 pieces of result....hehehehe...i can smile broader after this hahahahahahahaha...i can laugh louder and louder after this...muaahahahaha.....

Sunday, June 3, 2007

S W E E T ~ E S C A P E

huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....God help me!!! i want to get out of here ASAP!!!!


i cant stand anymore..not any second..I have reached my limit...7 years in UTM for me is unacceptable...i dont know for other people...but im talking bout me...


so, today im inspired to finish my thesis, do my thesis correction as much as i can do today..finish chapter 7,8 and 9 today...i have to...i need to!!!! or else im going to stuck here forever...no...dont want that happens....


wish me luck..i really need that luck...i have to create luck..well, we need to create luck right...??it wont come to you all by itself....


i wish i have a magic wand...

Thursday, May 31, 2007

unforgettable memories

all of sudden, my thought flew back to him..even just 2 months we had our chance together, but the scars that he left on me is unforgettable...


so i dedicate this song to him, remember one thing my dearest friend, 'cinta memang tak harus miliki'...


Salahkah aku
Mencintaimu
Memilikimu
Menyayangimu


Jangan paksakan kita untuk
Slalu bersama
Jangan paksakan kita untuk
Slalu mencinta


Salahkah aku
Mencintaimu
Memilikimu
Menyayangimu


Bila kita harus berpisah, sudah
Biarkan ini semua berakhir, sudah
Cinta memang tak harus miliki






p/s:- i never regret letting you go...because, i have someone now that know how to appreciate me than you do...at least he knows how to use my number...


I C A N ' T B R E A T H E ! ! !

it's been so long i havent update my blog...im so tight rigth now..i cant even breathe normally now..im too panic..panic with my thesis..DAMN!!!!


it was 3rd time (if im not mistaken!!) my prof rejected my thesis..n i have to redo the thesis correction..n some more, i still didnt touch my application yet..i think i'll reuse any available application for my project demo laa...what to do? im soooooo lucky to have this fussy supervisor...damn lucky yeah???


forget my thesis correction..well today, i just login to ym..i think i havent login for a very long time..thanks to my fucking thesis!!!!...last time, i had a myspace account, but i think end of april this year i deleted my account..i didnt know whether it was a brilliant idea..but sometimes i feel regret on what i had done..but half of mine says i should...hehehe but it's ok...then today, when i was online, i found my old buddy ( i knew him from myspace), mr SkinOff hehehehe it was quite surprise to meet him coincidently in ym..he was a very very very busy man..always busy 24/7..sometimes he slept in his office..what a very hardworking man is he...n i wonder, what a lonely wife to have him..ha ha ha ha ha ha ha...well good and hard work must come with a good pay right??? hehe who's that lucky girl can have his money???? ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha sorry...just teasing u my friend...wish u all the best man!!!


n today..as usual..i'll continue correcting my thesis until my supervisor satisfied with it..but at least i manage to finish all work excluding the application demonstration prototype only..hmm last week i went to my fren's wedding..here i attach their wedding photo..what a beautiful couple they are...good luck and wish u guys a happy marriage k!!!! cant wait for ur baby...hehehehehe





till then k..i need to do my work now..later i'll update my blog..i'll try to update it...luv u all...

Saturday, May 12, 2007

S U M O L A H

selamat pagi kepada diriku sendiri..hari nih sengsorg lagi..apa laa xseronoknyer....

smlm ptg kan..dlm pkl 2.30pm aku pun saja2 laa ym mmber aku (ayiem bukan nama sebenar)..nak pancing undi tgk dier free ke x..aku pun pancing2...lebih kurg mcm nih ler:

aku :wei, ayiem, ko nak tgk wayang x??
ayiem :citer per???
aku :SUMOLAH...ko nak tgk x???
ayiem :biler ko nak tgk?
aku :esok mlm ker??nak x??
ayiem :ko ajak laa rumet ko...
aku :rumet aku dah terus balik kg dier, dier dah habis dah...tinggal aku sendirian dibumi johor nih...(ayat sedih nak pancing si ayiem supaya temankan aku tgk wayang)
ayiem :hmm aku xnak aa kuar berdua dgn ko, lgpun ko x lama lagi nak jadi tunang org...

??????wei..mmg laa aku nak bertunang tp lmbt lagi seh..perancangan mmg hujung thn nih..tp lmbt lagi laa seh....aku tau laa x manis kuar berdua dgn lelaki lain tp...si ayiem nih mmber lelaki yg aku kira kamcing jugak laa time aku buat master kat sini...ish...kalau nak jadi tunang org, xkan laa dgn mmber2 kamcing pun xleh lepak lagi..bukan buat bende xsenonoh seh....tgk wayang jer..bukan buat wayang!!!ha ha ha..akhirnyer..setelah aku pujuk si ayiem nih dgn jurus pujukan aku ke-18, bersetujulah jugak dier nak tgk wayang dgn dier...setelah aku ugut dier aku nak tgk wayang sorg2...hahahaha


so...pergilaa kami ber2 ke wayang cathay kat CS tuh...hehehe tgk citer SUMOLAH...cerita yg sesuai ditonton oleh aku yg suka makan sushi sampai badan naik mencanak2 skrg nih...mungkin lepas nih aku join sukan sumo ler plak..hahahaha jgn kau...!!!!!glamer tau...aper korg xnak tgk ker perempuan pki cawat lawan..???atas tutup x???itu xkompem lagi pasal persatuan sumo sedunia x decide lagi ha ha ha ha ha ha





cerita SUMOLAH nih sebenarnyer menceritakan seorg lelaki gemuk yg kuat makan, mentedarah, melantak, makan x hengat org belakang yg bernama ramlee....seorg yg hidup dlm keadaan kais pagi makan pagi,kais petang belum tentu makan kalau ptg tuh dier pergi kais...

nak dijadikan cerita, si ramlee nih asalnyer keje kat klinik veterinar..klinik yg buat bedah2 haiwan tuh...hari dier pergi keje tuh, tiba2,moto dier kene tarik kat tgh jln pasal dier dah 6-8bln xbyr installment motor rxz dier tuh..bukan setakat motor jer kene tarik, dgn organ haiwan yg dlm box yg dier letak kat seat motor pun kene ambik sekali...berjln ler kaki si ramlee nih ke klinik dier keje tuh...

smpi kat klinik tuh, makcik doktor yg nama catherine tuh marah2 si ramlee pasal haiwan kepunyaan client terpenting klinik tuh mati pasal organ yg ramlee bwk tuh lmbt sampai (padahal dah si ramlee dah hilangkan dgn moto2 dier sekali)...maka.."u r fired" ler jawabnyer...

so si ramlee nih pun xder keje..tp satu hal si ramlee nih, bukan setakat badan besar, perut boroi n kepala kecik,tp mulut dier boleh tahan capui dier....mcm nak kene cabai jer mulut dier nih..mulut xder insurans..ckp pakai lepas jer..sbb tuh org selalu hangin dgn dier nih...mak dier pun hanging dgn dier..pasai mulut n sikap malas bekerja dier nih ler...

tp satu sikap ramlee nih, nmpk perempuan cantek skit, dahi licin skit,minyak dier pun naik ke kepala ler...gatai bukan kemain....dgn sikap nih ler dier dpt keje kat kedai 'boleh sushi' pasai anak dara tokei kedai tuh cantik bukan kemain...

hmm bermula laa episod si ramlee keje kat kedai sushi n berkecimpung di dalam sukan pakai cawat nih...hehehehe selebihnyer aku rasa baik korg sendiri tgk ler citer nih hahahahaha aku malas plak nak ulas pnjg2...bukan aper..nnti ramlee marah plak aku jual citer dier...lebih baik ler korg tgk yg seterusnyer eh...hehehehehe....

samb balik citer aku....lepas tgk wayang tuh, aku ngan ayiem pi melantak kat dataran jb makan bakso ngan steamboat lido yg pakai cucuk tuh hehehe ... lepas tgk citer tuh lapar giler hahahahahahaha...kitorg bantai mkn..mcm mana ler aku makin xnaik badan????

xkisah laa badan aku naik ker aper..janji hati hepi...yer x???? tp risau gak ler...hahahahah tgh berusaha nak kurus semula pasal ayiem ckp aku makin besar hahahaha...eleh dier berlagak laa tuh pasai dier dah kurus....

ok laa..aku nak samb buat keje laa...babai..mmuuaahh mmuuaahh i luv u..aper kejadahnyer????

Friday, May 11, 2007

A K U K E S E P I A N

hu hu hu hik hik hik sooobb sooobbb
sedih tul ler...its a sad sad situation..and it's getting more n more absurd...haassshhhhiiimmm!!! (sneezing..ooppsss!!! the most unwanted name in my bf list!!!)


wanna know why im crying??? wanna know why im unhappy????wanna know??wanna know???

well the answer is...last night..i was abandoned...abandoned by my rumet...ahaaa..ahaaaa....cengeng kejap...rumet aku dah habis study..so mlm tadi laa dier balik ker kg dier semula..so keseorangan laa aku mlm tadi...


aper aku buat jer mlm tadi eh?? ooo lepas ajer rumet aku blah, aku mulakan operasi menyapu bilik hehehe sumer brg yg aku boleh buang aku buang..aku rasa aku buang sumer brg ha ha ha..mmg beersih ler bilik aku...bersih wa cakap lu...biler dah bersih bilik aku, aku pun pergiler mandi n baring atas katil....


aper jer aku buat?? ber msg2 dgn bf kesayangan aku ler..tp bf aku mlm tadi mcm x best jer..sbbnyer dier bz ngan kwn dier n buat aku malas nak mmbalas msg dier...lg pun dier nak pergi cc mlm tadi..nak men game ngan kwn2 dier...xkisah laa dier pegi cc..drpd dier pergi club buat x tentu hala lagi laa aku hangin!!!! aku pun layan jer laa movie...citer 'find me guitly' starring by van diesel...tp sepanjang cerita aku x boleh fokus...apesal??? sbb aku sedih aku sengsorg...uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa


aku dah cukup merapu dah nih...nnti aku samb balik laa eh..aku nak buat keje kejap....bubai....mmuuah muuahhh luv u.....aper kejadah nyer???