Success

What is this??Any guess??

This is my final draft..cant u see my name there???hehehehehe finally ive submitted the thesis..and now im waiting for my viva date...hmm i feel release...feel free..feel like i just walked out from darkness towards brigther day..hehehehe hmm..it was a sacrifice..i wont forget the all the tiring, suffering, but yet sweet processes during my study...Thank to my supervisor..my friends and my parents...for their tremendous support..without them, i think i will not capable to achieve what i've achieved today....and the deepest gratitude to HIM..that allows and gives me a chance to live and achieve my success today..

this coming monday i'll start working hehehehe just got 2 days holiday to compensate my two years of study hahahahahaha but it's worth hehehehe

Another Delicious....

here is another delicious tom yam in JB...

this is anotehr delicious tom yam in Danga Bay, JB..the cook was Siamese, hmmm their 'kuah' was reeaaaallllyyy superb!!!!!! the price was RM5 per bowl..but u can ask them for xtra kuah..and i also enjoyed their kerabu mangga...hmm perrrggghhh wa cakap lu....terangkat!!!!!!!



Hehehe i think my blog after this will full with food..especially tom yam...heheheh my fav food hehehehehe....im looking for 'pecal'..i miss my aunt's pecal in sabak bernam...dont play2 haa.. her pecal is already in UK (because one of her daughter's friend ask my aunt to post the raw pecal to her hehehe) hehehehehe....hmm imagine haa..eat pecal with kang kung...then tempe...then tauhu...then taugeh...then beanstalk...then..peerrrggghhhh...add with some rice walauwei.......



if i can get her pecal pic i'll post in my blog..hahahaha

BBQ Time!!!

last tuesday, i was invited by my friend to join their BBQ party..it was nice..and nicer when my internal panel was there...hahahaha...we had chicken wing, ikan what i dah luper laa...shrimp...sausage..salmon fingers...lamb...a very delicious fried rice..fried mee hoon...laici cocktail (i made that..hehehe...)


i dont know how to roast those meats, so i just watch them roasted it and i became the food taster hahahahaha just 'kacau2' them..the BBQ went until 11pm..and everyone was really full...including me...i had three plate of nasi goreng mix with mee hoon, n chicken wing, lamb..fish..suasage..well i was the taster aite??hehehe so that was what a food taster will do..hahahaha

Our rentung chicken wing

ikan what i dah luper...

Saja nak gelak2

Kuih ape yang bungkusnya di dalam, isinya di luar?
Kuih salah bikin.

Binatang ape power Karate?
Kuda belang.cube kira brape black belt dia ade.

Siape yang menemukan dompet kulit?
Yang menemukan dompet kulit tersebut tolong pulangkan kepada saye.

Pintu ape yang walaupun dengan 10 org pun tak leh nak tolak?
Pintu yang ade tulis 'TARIK'

Saya ade 3 kepala,4 tangan dan 5 kaki...siapakah saya?
Pembohong...

Apa dia 'Jauh di mata, dekat di hati...'?
Usus

Binatang ape yang seluruh anggota tubuhnya kat kepala?
Kutu rambut

Nenek sape jalannya meloncat-loncat?
Neneknye si katak

Knape lelaki jarang kene penyakit anjing gila?
Sbb lelaki ni kan 'buaya'

Ape beza sekretari baik ngan sekretari kurang baik?
Sekretari baik..................'Selamat pagi tuan'
Sekretari kurang baik...........'Dah pagi ni tuan'

Ape persamaan Michael Jordan ngan Michael Jackson?
Dua-dua tak kenal korang...hehe

Tukang ape yang kalau dipanggil, die menjenguk ke atas?
Tukang gali kubur

Nak mencari sikit punye susah, bile dah dapat buang, ape bendanya?
Tahi hidung

Ape persamaan kain jemuran ngan telefon?
Dua-dua kalau dah 'kringgg' bole diangkat...

Knape pokok kelapa kat depan rumah harus ditebang?
Mestilah kene tebang, sape nak cabut pokok kelapa ...gile ape...

Gajah terbang dengan ape?
Dengan susah payah......

keh..keh..keh...

Digital Fortress

This is an interesting book to read. The story is about the appearance of an unbreakable mysterious code in National Security Agency at United State. NSA owns a powerful code-breaker machine, namely TRNSLTR. TRNSLTR is used to decipher Email in cases preapproved by the Justice Department. TRANSLTR was to include programming that called for passwords held in escrow by the Federal Reserve and the Justice Department in order to decipher a file. This would prevent the NSA from listening indiscriminately to the personal communications of law-abiding citizens around the globe. However, when the time came to enter that programming, the TRNSLTR’s staff was told that TRNSLTR has to be a free-standing decryption device whose day-to-day operation would be regulated solely by NSA.

This news has outraged one of the employee, Ensei Tankado. He saw TRANSLTR as a gross violation of human rights. The TRANSLTR can now open everyone’s mail and resealing it without their knowing. He quit on the spot from NSA and tried to publish the news to the Electronic Frontier Foundation and public. But NSA had stopped him. And now, he came back with an unbreakable code that makes the TRANSLTR fails to decipher it. Only he can decipher it, using his secret pass-key.

The sudden death of Ensei Tankado has aroused the conspiracy in NSA. The head of Crypto dept, Strathmore, called his head cryptographer Susan Fletcher, a brilliant, beautiful mathematician, to assist him to achieve his selfishly purposes without her knowing. He needs to find Tankados’s pass-key to decipher the code and save TRANSLTR’s pride. His ambitious has betrayed Susan, who battles to save the agency she believes in. When Susan realizes, she finds herself fighting not only for her country but for her life, and in the end, for the life of the man she loves…

UART

i would like to share some knowledge here...


if let say, u want to get millions stream of data or bits from your external hardware and you want to test it on your PC, it is better if you capture these data or bits using hyper terminal..


in my case, i need 1 Gigabit of data from my external embedded hardware (i use Stratix FPGA development board), thus, i have to transfer the data from the external hardware to my PC through a serial communication interface (using RSA 232 protocol) --> actually u can transfer the data faster using universal serial bus (USB). At first, we write a c code in Visual C++ to capture the data continuously (looping 32 millions time to achieve 1 Gigabit) from external hardware and save it in a file. This method is actually consuming lots of memory, and if you are not writing your c code carefully, you'll face a problem of insufficient virtual memory and after 4 millions of cycle your pc hang. This happened to me lots of time. We troubleshoot the code, modify the code even try to break the output file into several fragments and put some delay between millionth iteration, yes, the insufficient virtual memory problem solved, but, the consequence is, the data rate transfer becomes slower and slower…we need to wait 1 day to get 153 Megabit (10% of 1 Gigabit)…


So, then we think another way of capturing big length of data using hyper terminal..we move the c code, and replace it with hyper terminal…the hyper terminal can save the captured bits from external hardware directly into the specified file and it is faster..moreover, we don’t face the insufficient virtual memory problem and my pc didn’t hang anymore…

Are We Safe?

when you open the newspapers now, you'll see the headlines are highlighting the rising of crime rate. Recently in Johor Bharu, about 200 citizens were gathering in front of Menteri Besar's house to protest over this issue...What is happening now in our country? Even if you are accompanied by a male friend, it doesn’t mean that you are save…it was proven by last incident in Johor Bharu….


The couple was on their way back to their home that night, and suddenly an anonymous car, drove rammed from behind them, they were asked to pull over, but the boyfriend ignored the warning and they were chased for almost 20km, lastly their car slammed on something and they stopped..the gang took all their belongings and the girlfriend was taken into secluded area and she was brutally raped by the gang…hmm…so tragic…


our country is not safe anymore…

W O R R Y

This is my third entry for today..its not because i dont have other works to do..im not feeling 'ok'..im not feeling o 'f***ing' k!!!

the thing is, why cant i calm myself when my bf said he wanted to hang out with his friend?? Its not that im not allowing him to join his friend..it just that, i dont like it if they are hanging out in club..i know he wont do idiot things..i know he's not drinking or flirting with other girls, but i just dont like it..is it because im not open in this matter??there is some uneasy feelings in my heart..is it because i dont trust him? no..i trust him..i trust him..Jealousy...yes, im jealous with him...i envy him..he can spend time with his friends..he can have a good time..

when this thing happens, my mind always roll back to my ex..my ex didn’t like to tell me where did he go, with whom and he don’t want me to message him, call him while he’s hanging out with his friend… that’s y i was always pissed off with him..he’s too secretive..he always said to me, whatever happens between him and his friend are out of my concern..

but my current bf is too different from my ex..n i trust him more..but, whenever he said he wanted to hang out with his friend, my mind always think about what my ex had done to me those years…i should not too worry about him..unfortunately, i cant resist myself to have this ‘uneasy’ feelings inside me…

im worried about him

Please Understand Me

If I don't want what you want, please try not to tell me my want is wrong. Or if I believe other than you, at least pause before you correct my view.

I do not, for the moment at least, ask you to understand me. That will come only when you are willing to give up changing me into a carbon copy of you.

I may be your spouse, your parent, your offspring, your friend, your customer, or your colleague.

To put up with me is the first step to understanding me. Not that you embrace my ways as right for you, but that you are no longer irritated or disappointed with me for my seeming waywardness. Then, in understanding me, you might come to prize my differences, and, instead of trying to change me, preserve and even nurture those differences.

GETTING THERE

im getting there..almost close to my final check point..just another 1-2 week(s) to go..cant wait to finish everything and pack my things back to kl...


hmm...about my internal examiner...i got an invitation from a friend to join them for BBQ party..n my internal examiner will be there..should i turn it down or should i go there???i think maybe i should go to that party, if we want to go to a battle, we should know our enemy first, right???so maybe i'll take this opportunity to meet my examiner, face to face, get along with him first, at least intro myself to him (even though he already knows he's going to be my examiner hehehe)...maybe he'll ask about my work in advance and i can prepare myself earlier to his un-answered question hehehe...im scared of him..he's my head of department and he's one of the most unwanted panel in my faculty...he likes to shoot people during students' project presentation..aiiyyaaarrrkkk!!!!!


wish me luck guys...lots of luck!!!

Rebonding Time!!!!

im going to chill out for few hours hehehehe...going to saloon and rebond my hair hehehehe..yeehaaa.....hmmm..better than shopping hehehehe....

Thnx Mr SkinOff...

here i would like to give my deepest gratitude and thanks to mr skinoff for editing my chptr 2 yesterday..hehehe then, i send my whole thesis to him and hopefully he can amend it and can gives some opinion regarding to my thesis...



so, mr skinoff, sorry to troublesome you with my thesis..but hopefully after reading my thesis, you can get overall picture of my researh work...then, you can expand your knowledge kan mr skinoff??? hehehehe



last but not least..THANK YOU!!!! Hope u are going to enjoy reading my thesis!!!!

Thesis oo Thesis

hmm i think last time i said sumthing bout my supervisor, yes,he's fussy and a demanding person, that is true..but actually, he wants to help me...n i think until today i have no regret doing my master under his supervision...



im so glad i have a supervisor like him, even though he's busy with other things, but he still spares his time looking on my thesis and editing it..even though i have to do the correction after correction (betul ke what im trying to say ni?)..



this is the fourth time i have to correct and reconstruct my thesis..but, its ok...im willing to do it this time..im so blessed to have him..really so blessed...hmm so, the moral of the story here is, dont take things for easy, dont choose the easiest way just to get rid of something, because, if you always wanted the easiest way, you wont learn and you wont know that you can do more and better actually...

Im sorry dear..I cant..

This is the last msg i received in YM from my ex..im sorry, i have to censored his Yahoo ID..the thing is dear, i dont know whether there is still a space for u in my heart..i dont know whether i can love u like before..because, there's no more love for u from me..so sorry..im so sorry we have to end up like this..i never ask for it to happen between us..it's all up to you if u want to put all the blame on me, i accept it, but dont forget one thing dear, u r the one that influenced all my decision on that time..u r the one that pushed me away from u, it was not me..then, it is not easy to win me back..u hurt me once, and i forgave u, but now u hurt me twice, n if i forgive and come back to u, i think im making s**t in my life..once is enough..not twice..no more dear..im sorry..

fall in love

Title: Bila hati dah sayang
Singer: Salamiah Hassan
--------------------------

bila hati dah sayang
tak siapa yg boleh larang
bila sudah dipunya
selalu teringatkannya

bila sudah bercinta
siang malam ingatkannya
tidur baring tak lena
wajah selalu dipuja

bila rindu melanda di jiwa
tidak ada yang lain darinya
walaupun tak sesegak dipandang
itu tak kan menjadi soalan
asalkan dihati tenteram

bila sudah bercinta
siang malam ingatkannya
tidur baring tak lena
wajah selalu dipuja

bila hati dah sayang
tak siapa yang boleh larang
bila sudah dipunya
selalu teringatkannya

~ Salamiah Hassan ~

This is a nostalgic song singed by Salamiah Hassan in 80's. The song is about a young lady, whose heart was stolen by her one and only heartthrob, expressing her love, devotion, and never-ending feelings towards her lover. Fall in love…it’s a miracle experience happens between two heart..why do we fall in love??

The question is why do i fall in love??it’s so hard to explain it, but according to research, people fall in love, or seeking a love is because they want to expand themselves and to increase their abilities and effectiveness…these can be achieved through relationship…

Hmm well, it doesn’t mean that if we are single, we are not effective…we are effective in fact, if we are not effective how do we gain all the happiness and prosperity in our life now, it just that, maybe we can be more effective if we have other people to look after us and guide us..it is just my personal view…hehehe

"sedap giler...."

last day, i went to Johnny's Restaurant with my friend..just wanted to try their tom yam bee hoon..so i ordered their promo meal, it was a tom yam bee hoon, warm water (u can also choose Thai's tea), Vanilla Ice Craem (variety of flavours) and a bowl of mushroom tom yam soup...and my friend had a yam abc (really delicious) and a some kind of keow teow soup...


Wow..their tom yam was 'KICK'..seriously, im in love with the taste..it was more delicious than tom yam koong in secret recipe..and sold at reasonable price..only RM5.90 per bowl..compared to secret recipe, their price is RM13.90!!!! heheheehe i enjoyed their tom yam so much...if u try this tom yam bee hoon in Johnny's restaurant, i bet u wont regret...the sourness, sweetness and spiciness and all other ingredients were nicely blended...hmm until today i still keep thinking about the taste..ssllluuurrrrppppp!!!!!


After this, i want to ask my friend to go to TGI Friday hehehe....

so sweeeeetttt....

Ive received this pic from my friend via my email...hmm that was the sweetest pic ive ever seen...it's a picture of Tun Dr. Mahathir and Dr. Siti Hasmah, our ex-PM..they are so sweet in this pic..look how Dr. Siti Hasmah tease her husband in this picture..hehehe it's really show that they have a wonderful life as husband and wife ..

my point here is, the 'sweetness' in one relationship is not just practicing it during our young days only..we need to show and need to practice it until we get old (not just practice it under the bed sheet only eh hahaha)..it is not a crime to show the love, the affection between us and our spouse, and being romantic in public, but dont over do it laa..or else u might invite an uncomfortable eye witnesses around u hehehe..

i always wanted my husband treat me romantically in public, it doesnt mean that i want to show off, it just that, i want to be treated as special no matter where we are..

i do envy this old couple..hehehe they still in the mood of love until today ...so romantic..im so inspired...hehehe...

Think of It

"If you want to be a teacher..you need to learn twice.."

Why Cant I???

These are my fav movies!!!! Hell no im going to miss them!!!

I must watch these movies..i must!!!!! F**k my thesis for the moment...i want to enjoy these movies...Plz...this weekend i have to watch them..or else, i'll buy the pirate one...hahahahaha

L A S T L Y . . . .

Yeeeaaahhhhhaaaaa.........lastly i finish testing all the crypto hardware with the integration of Crypto API...it's quite blunder to an IT blind like me...if u ask me to design digital hardware, i can do it...no problem as long as i get all the design specification and the algorithm...actually im not that stupid when it comes to programming..I can manage the C programming, but this thing is playing with the Operating System (OS) and everything needs to follow that operating system environment...


But finally, i have finished it…after almost 4 months struggling to understand the flow of MS CryptoAPI and MSCryptoSPI behavioural….hmmm thanks to God..thanks to him…


After completed everything, then i realized, the output is just few lines….hahahaha people just want to see the output…they don’t bother about the underlying process…everything is about RESULT…they don’t want to know how suffer we are during that development process..especially during program debugging process…well..that’s reality right….what to do..just live with it!!!


Here i attach some screen shots of my program output..dont ask about the hardware and software component development, it need 2 years to explain it to you..hahahaha…im glad..finally ive finished!!!!!!

Figure 1: the RSA Encryption/Decryption Operation On Hardware

with the integration of API on Host PC

Figure 2: The Encryption/Decryption Process With the Integration

of MS Crypto API

Figure 3: The RSA-based Digital Signature Operation With the Integration
of MS Crypto API

These are just 3 pieces from my overall research work..i got lots of other pieces but i guess it's enough for showing these 3 pieces of result....hehehehe...i can smile broader after this hahahahahahahaha...i can laugh louder and louder after this...muaahahahaha.....

S W E E T ~ E S C A P E

huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....God help me!!! i want to get out of here ASAP!!!!


i cant stand anymore..not any second..I have reached my limit...7 years in UTM for me is unacceptable...i dont know for other people...but im talking bout me...


so, today im inspired to finish my thesis, do my thesis correction as much as i can do today..finish chapter 7,8 and 9 today...i have to...i need to!!!! or else im going to stuck here forever...no...dont want that happens....


wish me luck..i really need that luck...i have to create luck..well, we need to create luck right...??it wont come to you all by itself....


i wish i have a magic wand...